Genesis 18:24, NLT "Is there anything too hard for the Lord?"
Last night my friends - my Okinawa family - gave me a re-birth party. I got teary eyed thinking about how I was due to leave them soon and how I would desperately miss their sisterhood, companionship, love and fellowship. What really choked me up was that they actually noticed the positive change in me. One of my deepest desires is for others to see God in me. Not because it's deep, but because my life without Him is nothing. I know what my life looks like without Him. I wanted to experience the transformation that was available to believers andthose who have yet to believe. I didn't know that prayer had been answered.
Last night I realized that nothing is too hard for God. I'm yet growing and changing to become the woman He wants me to be and sometimes I fall so short. But I am not the same young woman who joined the Navy. I'm not the same young woman who arrived in Okinawa. Five years ago I was resigned and I didn't know God loved me. Deep in my heart I was angry with Him and didn't trust Him. And without trust there can be no intimacy or real relationship. For me to go from that to wanting more and more of God everyday makes me believe that nothing is too hard for God.
But today, I am resurrected, alive and reborn. It reminds me of the scripture that warns us not to put new wine in old wineskins. I had to die as many times as it took for rebirth. I don't quite yet know how to be the woman God revealed to me that I'd be. But I've changed enough to keep trying until I'm completely committed and submitted to God. I can't go back because I'm just not the same. God is real and deserving of my praise.
Posted By: Afi Pittman
Saturday, May 12th 2012 at 12:07AM
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